Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Why does saying good-bye have to hurt so much

Good bye my sweet Kiki (aka Clarisse) .  You were my wild little one.  You were born to a Ferrel mama and rescued by a vet.   That vet brought her to me saying that you needed someone to give you a lot of love.  You didn't like to be held .  You would hide from everyone else by me and Mr. Cozy.  Sometimes you were funny.  You would come out of hiding to eat crackers with me.  I knew that you were really sick when you started having all those accidents.  I knew you were loosing weight.  I was still surprised that you only weighed 8 pounds last night.  I hope that you will forgive me for capturing in that quilt and tucking you in the basket.  I think you liked it later.  You were funny, you poked your head out and then went back inside the quilt  You slept in the basket while the doctor checked you out.  She said you were terminal and would only last a couple of months with treatment.  I knew you were hurting so I couldn't let that keep happening.  Please forgive me for what was next to come.  I rubbed you and told you that I loved you and then went to walk out the door.  I came back because I wanted to see those fabulous green eyes of yours.  They don't show up in the pictures.  You weren't the prettiest of cats but those eyes were wonderful.  You looked up at me one last time and I left the room.  The vet said it would all happen right away.  So so sorry, you are already missed.  12 years of having you around, it will take awhile to get used to you that.  Goodbye little kitty, xo.

25 comments:

ImSoVintage Laura Walker said...

I am so sorry, Debby. I know how painful it is to lose a beloved pet. xo Laura

Kimberly said...

so sorry, Debby! Thinking of you.

Julia said...

Debby, I am so very sorry about your beloved kitty. I know how hard it was to make the decision as I have been there before. I wasn't as strong as you because I cried uncontrollably as I brought my terminal kitties to the vet. I was heart broken and it took me quite a while to come to term with it so I never want to go through that again. I had more than one that ended out that way. It's the worst feeling.
Big Hugs.
JB

barncat (Lisa) said...

I think she's beautiful, and I'm so, so sorry!

Cozy Little House said...

I'm so sorry. I tear up because I've been there and it hurts like hell. They are so precious and vulnerable and depend on us so much. All I know to say is: Be good to yourself. Allow yourself a long time to grieve. I'm still grieving a dog from 8 years ago. They give us companionship and joy. May you know that we all care and send you hugs and hold you in our hearts.
Brenda

Loretta Thomas said...

Oh Debbie, I can't seem to stop the tears, your tribute is so touching! I am so sorry for your loss of a true companion. I'm sure she gave you so much unconditional love.
You made the right decision regarding her little life. It is sooo hard when they run to the Rainbow Bridge, but she is in such a better place now with her friends and family who went ahead of her!

Miss Kitty & I are sending you many Purrs & Hugs...
Loretta

Butterfly 8)(8 Bungalow said...

I'm so sorry, Debby.

Susie said...

Debby, I am so sorry you had to let your cat go...but you were being unselfish...it's running and playing somewhere else today. Blessings to you, xoxo,Susie

vivian said...

It does hurt terribly so when we lose our fur babies.. incredible emptiness and sadness.. I know, Ive been there a few times. I'm so sorry you had to let your baby go. but she is no longer suffering and you can rest on the fact that you gave her a wonderful loving home, that she may not have had otherwise. she knew that too. Im sure they know.big hugs to you Deb..
xoxo
vivian

Barb said...

Oh Debby, I am so sorry. I know how it hurts to loose a beloved pet!

Blondie's Journal said...

This just breaks my heart, Debby. Kiki looks like she was a good friend to you. Hold tight to the good memories. I wish dogs and cats just lived a little longer.

XO,
Jane

GARAGE SALE GAL said...

It's a sad day when our fur-babies must leave us...so very sorry for you.
Warmly,
deb

Jo said...

I am so sorry for the loss you yur fur baby...hugs

Dewena Callis said...

I'm really sorry, Debby. Kiki's eyes are beautiful. I know it hurts so much to lose her.

Love to you,
Dewena

Stephanie said...

Oh Debby, I am crying right now! I know the pain you are experiencing because I just lost my dear Rosie Girl a couple months ago. It truly is hard to say goodbye and I will be praying for you.

Love and hugs!

Perfectly Printed said...

I'm so sorry! We adore our pets and it is so hard to lose them...they bring us such love! Thinking of you

scott7258 said...

God bless you during your tremendous grief from losing a beloved pet of so many years. I have 4 cats, & the house is empty-feeling when 1 just stays at the vet's all day for dental cleaning. I had a male cat for almost 21 yrs & everyone said what beautiful eyes he had. But I thought he was beautiful because he was mine! Thanks for giving your kitty such a wonderful life. Mary

Erica of Golden Egg Vintage said...

I'm so sorry Debby. :(
Sending lots of hugs and prayers that each day feels a little easier.
Love- Erica

Lisa said...

So sorry about your loss. We lost three within the last year having to put them down for various illnesses. It is hard. Bless her and your heart.

Edna B said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Debby. It hurts when our beloved fur babies must pass on. When my Tootsie went, I held her in my arms till way past her last breath. It was so hard to hand her over to the doctor. Just know that your precious Kiki has no more pain, and is thankful for the love that you gave to her. Hugs, Edna B.

Debby@Just Breathe said...

I am so sorry.....((HUGS))

NanaDiana said...

Well, I am bawling like a baby. This is the same thing that happened to my little Misty cat-am almost identical experience. My heart aches for you- xo Diana

Sue said...

Hold close all your memories of that little kitty, Deb. They'll make you smile one day when you're feeling low..... XO Sue

Corn in my Coffee-Pot said...

Hi Debby= sorry to hear about your kitty.
Our little Buster misses his big sister. He spent the first 2 nights looking for her and getting up several times to go out through the night. Last night I left a lamp on ...and he did much better. He usually sleeps with her--now he sleeps on her pillow.
Our pets take it as hard as we do when we lose a family member.
Pat

Musings from Kim K. said...

I'm wiping away tears. I'm sorry for your loss, Deb. Our cats are such a huge part of our family. I understand your pain. HUGS!!