Wednesday, June 18, 2014

I need my bloggy friends

I am so sorry.  I borrowed this image from one of you and can't remember who to credit.
It explains my post today.
I have been so stressed about getting this house ready that I not only made myself sick but I had an accident pumping gas yesterday.  I sprayed myself with tons of gas .  All over the front of me including eyes and mouth.  I did go to urgent care and had my eyes checked.  I am okay now but it was a bit of a panic trying to get some help when it happened.  I took my top off in the Walmart gas station lot.  Yep, I did.  I had a jacket in the car that I put on......I had to get some of the gas off.  I know it was from being careless and too stressed.  Time to slow things down.
But the real reason for this post.  I saw a surgeon today for a lump I found 3 weeks ago.  It's in my leg/groin area. When I first felt it I didn't think much about it.  But it is presenting so much like the liposarcomas I had over 20 years ago.  Same location but other side.  I had to wait to be scheduled to see the surgeon.  But that was never done.  I got the surgeons number and called myself yesterday.  They saw me today.    The doctor is concerned that if this is cancer again that the pelvis may be involved since I have had these things on both sides .  So in two to three days (more likely next week) I will have the lumps that are near the surface removed and tested.  If they are positive they will probably the same time do an exploratory to see if there are sarcomas deeper.  They tend to be deep and close to the muscle.  I will be having a cat scan right before the surgery.  The doctor said it may or may not be helpful.  He said if the pelvis is involved he will stop the surgery and we will need to talk.  Of course we know that won't be good.
Now, I have been here before.  I was so frightened then because my children were so young.  Since then we adopted another child but they are all adults now.  I know more now than I did before about this kind of cancer.  I'm not worried about the surgery, the pain or following treatments.  I do need to stay positive and have patience. 
I hope that I can come back on here and say oops, false alarm.  But I think it is cancer and I think the doctor does as well.  You don't notice these until they cause other problems.  Only one in 10,000 lipomas are sarcomas.  They are totally different but share the same name.
The doctor asked if I had plans or obligations coming up.  Nothing that is more important than this.  I am having a garage sale Saturday that I would like to get through.  Mainly because of the stuff being around when they start showing the house.  Yes, that will continue, somehow, as we really need to sell now more than ever.  I may ask for help to keep the house in order. 
Okay, I made it through all of this without a tear but feel them nearing.
I am okay, just need some prayers and positive thoughts about what's ahead.  It would be nice for this all to go away but it's not going to just yet.  On the way to the appointment today I prayed.  I prayed for God to help me get through what needed to be done.
You know when you feel the need to talk to a friend.  Well I have friends that I can talk to but I also consider so many of you as close friends.  So that's why I have told you about this.  I just need my blogging buddies.
Love to you all.

28 comments:

Susie said...

Debby, I hope you think of me as your friend. I am praying for you right now even as I type this out. Stay strong, We are here for you. Love, Susie

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

Oh Debby I will keep you in my prayers and hope that you can stay calm and do what you need to do. You are under way too much stress and need to try to take care of yourself. I'm glad you went to urgent care when you had the accident. Better to be looked at in this situation. I'm hoping for the best with the lump, too. Sending you bunches and bunches of hugs my friend! Hugs, Diane

Vickie @ Ranger 911 said...

Debby, I think you are so brave in the way you are facing this crisis head on. On a positive note, there's been so much progress in cancer treatments over the past few decades and hopefully if it is cancer, there's a treatment specifically for what you have. I'll keep you in my thoughts and hope for the best possible outcome. I hope you can hold you garage sale to lessen the stress you are under. Take care.

xo, Vickie

Julia said...

Dear Debby, sometimes things happens for a reason and this seems to be one of those time. So sorry about your gas spill accident, it could have been really bad. I'm glad you had a jacket in the car.
Even a tiny spark from your cell phone could have set you on fire.

I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and I know you will be OK. Just put your trust in Jesus, the great physician. I hope that you put yourself first and like you said ask for help. I'm sure some of your neighbours and friends will be more than willing to give a helping hand.

Keep us informed.
I really care.
Hugs,
JB

Lutka And Co. said...

Debby,

Sending you good thoughts and prayers...
Hugs, Linda

SImple and Serene Living said...

Sweet friend, I hope you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so glad that the gas accident wasn't worse and I am saying prayers for healing for you. Please try to get some rest. I know you have a lot going on, but you are obviously under a lot of stress. We are here for you. xo Laura

barncat (Lisa) said...

It's been quite a while since I commented on your blog, but I have been keeping up. So sorry to come and read this today, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. I do hope you can come back in a few day and say "oops, false alarm".

NanaDiana said...

Debby- My love and prayers are with you. You KNOW I am praying for you. I am going to email you later tonight if that's okay. xo Diana

vivian said...

OH dear girlfriend! you do need your bloggy buds to rally around you and hold you up in prayer. I'm sorry you have to go through this. It sounds so very scary. I will be praying for you every time I sit at my computer. I hate that nasty c word.. Im praying its just a little lump of nothing. hang in there! (((((((HUGS))))))))
vivian

Erica of Golden Egg Vintage said...

Debby-
I'm so sorry to read this tonight.
Please know that I will be praying hard and sending lots of positive thoughts your way.
Hugs!
Erica

Holly said...

Oh dear, sweet, Debby. You better believe that you are in my thoughts and prayers, as is your sweet husband. Praying that it is just a false alarm. Wish that I could be there to hold your hand and give you a big hug! Oh how I wish that I was closer so that I could help you with moving and yard sale-ing. Stay strong and know that the Lord is with you every step of the way! Sending you (((hugs))), Holly

Miss Merry said...

Debby, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I think sometimes it is easier to write these things than say them out loud! And, even though we are not there physically for you - your friends and followers have your back! We will be talking to the big guy on your behalf and you will get through this. Virtual hugs.

Miss Merry said...

Debby, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I think sometimes it is easier to write these things than say them out loud! And, even though we are not there physically for you - your friends and followers have your back! We will be talking to the big guy on your behalf and you will get through this. Virtual hugs.

Miss Merry said...

Debby, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I think sometimes it is easier to write these things than say them out loud! And, even though we are not there physically for you - your friends and followers have your back! We will be talking to the big guy on your behalf and you will get through this. Virtual hugs.

Pam~ Virginia Retro said...

Debby, I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way. Glad the gas mishap wasn't worse, how scary. Take care, we're all sending our prayers.

Sweet Posy Dreams said...

Bless your heart, Debby. There is just too much going on for you at once. I'm hoping you will get good news.

PatC - All is Bright said...

Debby

You are such a special lady. I will definitely keep you in my prayers. Just continue to keep your trust in God.

"Even if life gives you a thousand reasons to quit...God will give you a thousand and one to keep going".

Warm hugs my friend,
Pat

GARAGE SALE GAL said...

Praying for you...
Isaiah 41:13 says..
"I am holding You by your right hand~don't be afraid, I am here to help You"
I recently read this and have written it down. May you feel God's peace during this time..
warmly,
deb

Gina said...

Debby I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers. Good luck and take care.

Musings from Kim K. said...

Holding you up in prayer! Lots and lots of prayers. Wish I could give you a "real" hug too!!!!

20 North Ora said...

Debby - so sorry to hear this, but we know the great healer and just pray a peace for you at this time. Will be praying for you, your family and your doctors. Keep us posted.

Judy

Relyn Lawson said...

I am praying. Keep up posted, please.

Sheryl said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck with your surgery.
Sheryl

Pam Kessler said...

Debby, I am so sorry! You've already been through this once, this is so unfair. I'm thinking and praying for you today. On a different note, good luck on the garage sale. You should have a great day for it!

Kelly said...

Oh Debby, I'm SO sorry to hear this news! I can only imagine how scared you are right now. I would be the same way. I will keep you in my prayers as you go through this. Try not to think too far ahead too. Take one day at a time. Take comfort in knowing that you've seen a doctor and will be taken care of. If you beat it once, you can do it again if it turns out to be cancer. And one more thing. Stay away from gas pumps for awhile. LOL.

Kimberly said...

oh Debby - I am so sorry to read this post. I am sending only "GOOD" thoughts your way. xxoo Keep us all posted.

Candy S said...

Oh Debbie we just met on our blogs. I feel so bad, I will be praying for you too. My thoughts and pryers will be with you throughout this trying time.

Crystal Rose Cottage said...

Debby...I haven't read any blogs in quite a while but I hope and pray that you find out it is not what you think it is. Have faith and hang in there! I will be thinking of you.
Hugs,
Patti